Limitless

So much is expected when you are young. We expect to grow older and have the perfect job, the perfect partner, the best friend, and an amazing life. The truth is that we grow and things get tougher. Feelings fade, friendships are torn apart, emotions become confusing, and we are only left to wonder, when?

  When will things become real? When I say real, I mean honest. I mean true. I mean meaningful. With age comes heartbreak, betrayal, and disappointing realizations. I am not being pessimistic, just realistic. I know that things will get better, then worse, then better again. It is just the cycle of life. Eventually the ache that I have now will be replaced by new and different emotions.

  I will understand the reason for all of these struggles one day. I don’t want to wallow in my own pity, but I am really disappointed; In myself mainly. I would really like someone that I can tell everything to. I want a damn companionship that does not have any limitations.

 I yearn for someone that understand me fully and is completely open and honest with me. I am sick of chasing after this high that someone I love gives me. I want to be the high that someone cannot live without :( It would be so satisfying to call someone up and tell them every damn thought in my head, without them judging me or rushing me or misunderstanding be or becoming offended.

 My time will come, this I know. I just hope that I learn to patiently wait…