I will never be THAT girl.

I will never be the girl that stands out in a crowd.

I will never be the first one to make a joke or to make small talk with you.

I am not one with witty, funny comments that can make anyone smile.

I can’t break tension or awkwardness with simple conversation.

I can’t confront someone without feeling uneasy and I can’t strike up a conversation without feeling uncomfortable.

I fantasize about saying all of the right things and about making tons of friends, but I know that isn’t and never will be me.

I hold onto people I love for too long and always expect them to do the same with me.

I don’t walk into a room and brighten it up

My smile doesn’t seem sincere enough to brighten someone’s day.

I cannot fake a laugh, I cannot force a conversation, and I cannot hide my true feelings.

I can, though, give a smile no matter how I feel.

I never know the right things to say or the right questions to ask.

I seem to never make connections.

I have so much love to share, but no one to share it with.

I miss the people that I once called my friends…

The ones whom have become acquaintances

I wish it were as easy for me as it is for them…

I do not fit in with any crowd, no matter how much I would like too.

I will never be THAT girl.

I am not the girl next door.

I am not the bad girl either.

I am not the funny one.

I am not the smart one.

I am not the one that’s always happy.

I am not the one that anyone wants to BE.

I am not the girl that anyone asks questions about.

I am the one that’s easily forgot.

I don’t know where I belong.

Does anyone ever wonder about me?

Do you ever wonder if I am okay?

Do you wonder if I think of you?

Do you ever wonder if I am happy?

Do you ever wonder where I am?

I am behind them… In the background, wishing I was a part of crowd.

I guess if you really thought about me, you would contact me, right?

Nothing feels the same…

Things that I thought would last forever, didn’t.

It’s hard to fight on my own.

It’s hard to try when I am the only one…

It’s hard to walk away when it’s something I have never done.

What have I done wrong?